Monday, January 03, 2011

"Javi s" Story

I am a registered volunteer for an AIDS charity called "Concordia" I have been registered with the charity since 2002.

Part of my spiritual work that is connected with the charity, is "being there" for someone,when in many circumstances others are not. It may be termed as a "Buddy".
Additionally my husband is also a volunteer. We often work alongside the psychologists by giving treatments to a person affected by HIV. Due to the continued stigma in todays society, even now people still find it hard to disclose their status, thus having and causing stress and other ailments such as depression and lack of self acceptance. By receiving Reiki prior to a treatment,the patient is more likely to open up emotionally as they are in a relaxed state of consciousness.

On many occasions, especially in the first four years, I was able to visit the daycare centre every week, providing Reiki for anyone who felt they needed it. Often I would be giving 4-6 treatments each week.

There is also the home visits as well as Hospital Visits.
One morning, "Concordia" asked me to accompany them to the Hospital as there was a young man who was dying of AIDS. This is his story.
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"Javis Story"

Javi was the same age as me, 40. However his sunken face and jaundiced skin made him look many years older. He was frail, with a stomach full of fluid. There was a complication and his body was bloating.
Yet his piercing blue eyes shone like sapphires against the whites of his eyes tinged with yellow speckles.
"Javi" has always denied Reiki treatments at the centre, he was shy, and prefered his life on the street, something he had always known.
However, now that he was in hospital,in pain, he felt he wanted a relief.

"Javi" was unaware that he was dying as he had been in and out from time to time.
Why had he denied the healing in the past?
Did he not love himself enough to care?
Did he feel that he did not deserve it?

I sat down with him while a monitor from the centre went to run some errands.
I explained to Javi what Reiki was and asked himif he wanted to receive any.
He wanted to smoke.
Smoking was not a good option as it was not allowed. However I thought, I have to gain his trust. He did not trust anyone. So I stood by the door, watching out for any nurses, so that he could just enjoy a quick puff on a cigarette.
Realizing that I was "helping" he said he wanted to try the reiki.
I asked him to close his eyes, but he was too eager to know what was going to happen that he wanted tokeep them open.
He lay slightly upright in the hospital bed. I placed my hands in the aura of the crown chakra and then the crown. As I did so his eye lids began to flutter to the point of closing. He started to relax. I only did a session for about 10minutes. When he came to, he said he felt spaced out,like when he took his heroin.

Javi,had been a heroin addict. The centre, with their drug rehabilitation programme had eased him onto methadone,however street life and drugs had been his life.His family had been involved in drugs. Sadly he had not known any different. Any time he tried to move forward, something just pulled him back to that life.

I felt that the work at the centre was teaching me about compassion. With Javi, it was a special journey.

I arranged with the moitor and Javi that I would visit him each week.

The hospital had only given him 3 weeks maximum to live.They said it was just a matter of time.

Tuesday came around again and I visited "Javi" for a second time. This time he was more eager to have Reiki and more eager to talk. He said that nobody had been to see him. Nobody.

His dream was to return home.He realised that he was not going to get better and something,made him feel like his days were ending, like a knowingness gliding over him.He asked me to arrange for him to return home,a flat that was his, yet in times he had not even lived there as there were people and situations he was running from.
But there was family,his late brothers exwife and her two sons.Why had they not been to see him?

Most of his family were dead. Drug addiction had ended their days.
I said I would do what was possible.
We started another Reiki session, this time my main focus was on the thymus. I also knew that when working with the dying, the terminal, that working from the feet upwards, was the most beneficial process, but I did not feel or see someone who was ready to die, he was not ready to go. Much of the Reiki took place in the aura, where I was able to connect with the pains of the past, the circumstances that he was running away from, the fears that had overshadowed his path and his life.

"Promice me you will arrange for me to go home" he said,"I promice I will do my best". I fought long and hard for Javi to return home.I researched for nursing care, rang hospices, who sadly would not accept Javi as he did not have "Cancer" AIDS was not Cancer sohe was not allowed to go. I fought against so much red tape, but sadly, the powers that be would not allow the procedure to take place.

The following week, I visited Javi.The prior complication had eased and the nurses were able to drain off the liquid. His eyes were glistening and the whites of the eyes whiter, but the body more frail.

"Can I go to my home" was his first words when I saw him the following week. Sadly it was not possible. He was dissappointed as this was his dying wish. He did not want to die in hospital and still no visitors. We continued with the healing.
Javi had been given 3 weeks to live. In fact he lived for 3 months. Unfortunately because of his weakness he started with bed sores, even though the nurses turned him.

I still continued to meet his dying wish,but because of ethics and health it was not possible to allow this to happen. The last visit was emotional.He knew and I knew, that the acceptance that his time was nearly up,was near. He was still able to talk a little. He was waiting to see me. He told me that an old friend had been to see him as well as his late brothers ex wife, though only for 5minutes.

He said some special words that I wish to share with you
"You did not know me, but you made time to be there for me. You did not judge me, you accepted me for who I am, and you gave me one true gift, that I have never had in my life, the ability to receive love.You have shown me what real love is. Thank you for that."

His eyes weerily closed and he sunk into a slight sleep. I continued to give healing, from the feet upwards and blessing his aura with light.

I received a phone call the following day to say that Javi had passed to the light.
I found it a great lesson as I was able to be there for Javi, buthe in turn is there for me.Javi is one of the great teachers, who will go on teaching.I have used his example on many occaisions, and you can share his story with yours.

I sincerely believe that the time Javi had was extra, to learn to receive and accept Love, Unconditional love. We all think that everyone experiences love in their life, but many alas do not.This is a reason why we, as Reiki Masters,Teachers and Practitioners,have a unique gift to share with the world.

This empowers me,to know that Reiki is a powerful tool to share with the world.
How beautiful and powerful Love is.....

Transformation